well, i stayed at home the entire day, to rest. hahahahahaha. and yep, watched some prgrammes which i missed last night, listened to some songs that i am addicted to, packing up my wardrobe etc . (: now i feel the sense of satisfaction for my room, oh wait, i mean my stuffs, which looks neater and more organized, in a way. :D

i threw away some things, more of "memories". i think i should clear all of it. the ticks, the letters, the drawings, the small lil sheets of kitty papers and all. i know ive wronged you like too much, but then again, i know you are hating me. oh well, i dont wanna carry on in this.

so, eugene called me earlier on. he said many many meaningful things to me. i got pretty upset about hearing it too. perhaps for all the things he had said are true. i know he's more sensible than i am. i know he sees more than what i did. i know he solves problems in a better way than i can think of. and i also know that this time round, i should listen to what he said and heed his advise. but sometimes, things seems easier than how it could be done. i know eugene said it all with senses, but at the same time, i know i need time to accept it all. i mean, is it that easy, like THIS easy to take for every word you said into my mind. like come on, i need time myself like how you do..

okay, my mood isnt good at all today. i am sorry that ive made this entry a tormenting one. i'll brace myself up, like what i said. yes i will. i know what i can and what i need. i know you want me to stay cheerful and thats what i am gonna do.

so thanks for everything, and things will move on, for the both of us. last but not least, you're a great friend.